I have spent the time since camp ended thinking about a lot of things.\u00a0 This was a great summer and it got me thinking about all the summers I have spent at camp, but not just this camp, so many other camps.\u00a0 I can name almost every camp I have gone to.\u00a0 There is a YMCA camp that I don’t remember the name of to be honest as well as a JCC one back in New Jersey, but they were from when I was really little.<\/p>\n
It’s been at least 14 straight summers working at or being a camper at a camp and I am sad to see another summer end.\u00a0 I am left questioning what I will be doing next summer and it worries me a little bit.\u00a0 It reminds me how much I should value the next couple years, as I may not have another chance to do some of the things I have time to do now.\u00a0 Today my dad told me something interesting that I’d like to share.\u00a0 He said,”When I was young I was free to do anything, but had no money to do anything, now I have the money to do those things, but no time.”\u00a0 It makes me wonder about the whole construct of capitalism.\u00a0 I was thinking about my future and whether or not I could survive on whatever the equivalent of $50,000 a year is in the future or if I need to keep on trucking.<\/p>\n
I am in the mood to question though and I am questioning every move.\u00a0 I have been listening to the Rent Soundtrack and watched the movie on my computer and I thought about how short life is and the promises I made myself only a year or two ago.\u00a0 I promised myself that I’d live my life to the fullest and not wait an instance and today I am wondering if I have really done it.\u00a0 People talk about judgement day with g-d,\u00a0 but I think my judgement of myself is far more harsh than anything g-d could through at me.\u00a0 Sure I work hard and enjoy myself, but I still wonder every day what I could to more, how can I better myself, and how in the end is everything I do going to make the world a better place?<\/p>\n
Today at dinner as sometimes happens, my mom suggested a really specific career.\u00a0 She was talking about how she thought if I could get into some type of law where my job would be to be a children’s advocate I might enjoy my work.\u00a0 I love my mother, but giving me specific direction like that is not too helpful during my sophomore year.\u00a0 It leaves me even more confused than before.<\/p>\n
Do I want to go to law school?\u00a0 Do I want to go to business school?\u00a0 Do I want to go to grad school at all?\u00a0 Do I want to go into politics?\u00a0 Will I marry?\u00a0 Will I have children?\u00a0 Will they be Jewish?\u00a0 Will they go to camp like me?\u00a0 It all comes back to the Circle of Life like in the Lion King and it makes me wish that the hokie pokie<\/a> was what it’s all about.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" It all comes back to the Circle of Life like in the Lion King and it makes me wish that the hokie pokie was what it’s all about.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"spay_email":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[13,29,31,32,71,74,104,115,134,139,144],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/rosskressel.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/427"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/rosskressel.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/rosskressel.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/rosskressel.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/rosskressel.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=427"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/rosskressel.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/427\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/rosskressel.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=427"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/rosskressel.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=427"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/rosskressel.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=427"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}